19 months on the 19th!!!!

Wow....on Dec.19th we will be logged in for 19 months....I can't believe it! It seems like a dream that is never going to come true at this point. We had to have our homestudy updated recently and that helped make it seem like we were actually doing something. A good friend of mine is in China right now getting their little girl and I am so happy for them. Kennah recently turned 10 months and life is busy but good. I hope all is well with everyone still waiting and that Christmas is a time of happiness and hopefulness.

Out of The Review Room- July 5th

Yesterday I got a very pleasant phone call from Deb (of Deb and Shane) letting me know that May was out of the Review room. It is so good to know that something is actually happening with our file and that we have made it past that step. Thanks for the call Deb you made my day and congrats on being in the review room.
Wahoo!

13 Months- June 19th!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We have now been logged in 13 months and the wait continues for Tya. Last month a lady from my travel group contacted our agency and was told it would probably be at least another years wait for us from May...and so it continues the long wait, the uncertainty, the unknown, the unpredictable. However, one thing I know for certain is that Tya is our destiny...just as Savannah and Kennah are as well. Savannah's middle name is Destinée...Jeff's choice as he felt that 12 years ago she was our destiny...and so our journey to our destination...our destiny... continues.
Thirteen things to do while waiting:
1. read and learn more about China, adoption and babies in general
2. shop for lots of girl things
3. start exercising again
4. enjoy every minute with Savannah and Kennah
5. spend quality time with Jeff....more dates
6. get all 100 pieces of material for Tya's quilt
7. work on Tya's scrapbook
8. learn more about my computer, dropshots, video and picture taking
9. go to some peichinaadopt gatherings
10. get some housecleaning, decorating, organizing etc; done
11. read
12. relax
13. take up a new hobby...yeah right, but I needed a number 13

A Year!!!!

Tomorrow marks one year of being Logged-In. A year!!! That is 12 months!! That does not even count the 9 months it took us to complete our home-study and get all our paper work done. So when people ask me about the adoption is it any wonder I answer with...I don't know, I don't have a clue. It has started to feel like a lie that I am telling people. I haven't been keeping up with blogs like I used to. I haven't heard a thing from our agency. I feel so disconnected from the process at this point, when I was busy with the paper work I felt like it was more real. So here we are....12 months logged in and millions of miles from bringing Tya home. I could go on and on but I am trying to live in the moment and focus on what is going on in my life right now, but for this one time a month on the 19th, I allow myself to think about Tya and to wallow in the despair I feel at times, I allow myself to be dramatic and to feel sad. Then I get on with life and think about my two beautiful girls that are here right now and my wonderful family and friends.

11 months!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow will be 11 months log in date anniversary...almost a year since our papers were in China. I can't believe it!

10 month log in anniversary

Well first of all Happy Belated saint Patrick's Day.
I also wanted to mark in the blog the anniversary of 10 months waiting. I think I will have to adjust my guess time for when we will have a referral and when we will travel...looks like a longer wait than my longest wait guess ...it is all about re-adjusting and patience at this point. Sam was helping me try to figure out a best guess and I think the best case scenario right now is May 2008 for a referral. We will have to wait and see that could change and could be worse and could be better. I will write more later, just wanted to acknowledge where we are at right now. Sigh.

March 17th Quilt Piece Deadline

Ok.... I finally did it, I set a deadline. I have a very bored seamstress just looking for something to do...right Cathy? ;) I am in desperate need of quilt pieces....so please please please help a girl out. I would love to have all the pieces in by March 17th....Saint Patrick's Day....one of my favorite events....so that should make it easy for everyone to remember.
I am sure you have a piece of material laying around that will suit, anything that is meaningful to you. Look back at my blog to get ideas or look at Natalie's, Carolyn's or Debbie's to get inspired. I will do up the scrapbook pages if you are nervous to do that or simply include a picture of your family and your wish and I will do up a page in the scrapbook so that I can show Tya who sent her the piece of material and why.
I am excited to see the quilt all complete and I promise to post pictures. My aunt Cathy has been taking quilting lessons and she came over yesterday to show me some of her handywork and I am so excited to see my quilt complete. The quilt that she showed me was absolutely beautiful...I tried to keep it too.
MARCH 17th....I know I can count on you to help me meet my deadline....Thanks you are all amazing!

Thank you...thank you...thank you

I will write again soon and post some pictures, but I just wanted to write a short note and say thanks to everyone for their kind words and congratulations. Thanks also to everyone who came to visit, sent food, gifts or called, we love you all! Thanks to my family...I have the most amazing family in the world. Sheri Lee thanks for everything...staying with me one night, taking Savannah one night, and offering to do everything. Thanks to my brothers who were there all the time and are already very protective. Thanks Mom and Dad for everything...I can't say any more or I will be bawling.
I have been in a bit of a whirlwind since I got home and my brother just fixed our computer for us and we got it back two nights ago so I feel totally out of touch and still have all my favorite blogs to read and catch up on. I feel like I have been away to another planet rather than in the hospital. I have to say that I cannot say enough good things about the staff, doctors and nurses of the PC Hospital where I was all last week. AMAZING wonderful and caring people, I feel very blessed to have had that experience. So thank you to them as well. Ok...gotta go feed Kennah. Just read my sister's comment on my last posting to find out all the details on our little princess...and a big thank you to Crystal Murray for deciding the first name of our daughter for us, without you she would still be No Name Brant... we actually only had the middle names picked and Savannah and I both wanted Kateri for a first name. Her name suits her now and we think she is pretty special. Savannah is beside herself happy in her new role as big sister and she can't wait to bring Tya home to add to the female population. Good thing Jeff loves girls :)

What is the hold up?

Hee hee...I am so touched that so many people are wondering where the baby is...did I have him/her yet?...not yet. I will keep you all posted...I LOVE the countdown suggestion Stephanie and I love it even better that you were doing it for me. Thanks :0). I am so not good at that, keeping track. So the news is that I am going to have my water broke tomorrow...(is that too much info.?) If that doesn't work and I get the feeling from my Obgyn (who is awesome and amazing, so sweet...the very best) that I will probably have to go for a c-section on Tuesday am...bright and early and by all accounts I have heard that usually the babies are born about 8 am on the c-section day as long as there isn't a long wait for the OR or any complications. I had to have a c-section for Savannah so I knew all along that this was a possibility but I decided to give myself a week past my due date and see what happened this time around and my OBGYN was very supportive of whatever decision I made. I asked Jeff if I could bring my laptop into the hospital, he said I could but he didn't think there was internet connection. I am going to anyway and if it doesn't work I may get my sister to try for me, she is pretty savy with the computer and she lives super close to the hospital. Thanks again for all the concern and kind words I could feel the love across the internet... I hope and pray for a healthy baby. I will be in touch.

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The Clows...with Kennedy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They have her....Kennedy is in their arms. After all this time, all those tears, all those days of wonder and worry. She is where she is menat to be. I am so emotional right now I can't even think straight. I love my dear friend Carolyn and she is so ready to be a mom. I can't wait to talk to her in person. For now I am waiting and watching my blog for updates, just click on their name on the sidebar to read more. Look at these beautiful pictures I just had to post them.
xooxoxoxooooooooooooooooooooooooooxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxooxoxooxooxo to the whole family...I love you all. Hi Kennedy, we can't wait to meet you.

Where are we at in the adoption process???

Where are we at in the adoption process....hmmmm...good question. I have no idea. Are we still adopting? YES!!!!! This was recently posted by CCAA and one of my fav. sites, Rumor Queen. Do I know what it means for us...not really. I can guess, I can estimate, I can pray. All I know is that if March is almost out of the review room, we are May...so I hope it is soon for us to be out of the review room...I will feel better once we are out of the review room and onto the matching room although that may take some time. I feel like it will be sometime in 2008 when we finally have Tya with us...I am just not sure how early or late in the year that will be. It will be when it is supposed to be I guess. That is all the news I have on this front right now.

Clows are on their way to Kennedy

I am so excited and thrilled to know that Carolyn and Marvin are en route to China. I feel like I should be going with them as we have been through every step of this process together. I want to be a little ladybug on their shoulder that minute that Kennedy is placed in their arms. Oh how sweet a moment that will be.
I am also thinking of the Stetson's from Summerside, that are on their way to China as well. Anyone who wants to follow their blog can check out thestoryofyou.com (on my sidebar) and go to the section on travelling and click on their daughter Roshandra's name.
I am thrilled to finally see some of the people I know leaving for China it is a hopeful sign of progress. I hope it continues and even speeds up but there is no way to know or predict that.
Wahoo....Clows, Stetsons and all families on their way to China....I am thinking of you!

One more week until Due Date....39 weeks prego today

Here are some more Marvin Comics which I love. My doctor said to watch cartoons instead of the news and the newspaper as I have been a worried wreck these past couple of weeks. These made me smile. :)

EIGHT MONTH LID Anniversary!!!!

Wow...8 months since LID. It seems longer, it feels like all the months before that should count for something too. It seems bizarre to me that I can only be 8 months LID and yet be expecting to deliver a baby in about 3 weeks give or take a few days and I became pregnant so long after we started the whole process of adoption . In someways I have this feeling of how unfair it is, a kind of two sided emotion of happiness and anticipation for this baby and a sadness for how long it is taking to adopt Tya. I worry, worry, worry about all sorts of things but one thing I always worry about is that somehow I will have compromised the adoption by becoming pregnant. That is hard for me to admit and scary to write. I guess all I can do is place it in God's hands and hope that everything works out the way it is meant to. I am very blessed so far and as I look back over my life there has not been too many things that have happened that I haven't come to realize must have been meant to happen that way.
On another note today is windy, snowy and blustery and schools have cancelled an hour early so I am just waiting for my daughter to come home. I hope we get a chance to snuggle on the couch, wrap up in a blanket and drink some hot chocolate.