
Wow...8 months since LID. It seems longer, it feels like all the months before that should count for something too. It seems bizarre to me that I can only be 8 months LID and yet be expecting to deliver a baby in about 3 weeks give or take a few days and I became pregnant so long after we started the whole process of adoption . In someways I have this feeling of how unfair it is, a kind of two sided emotion of happiness and anticipation for this baby and a sadness for how long it is taking to adopt Tya. I worry, worry, worry about all sorts of things but one thing I always worry about is that somehow I will have compromised the adoption by becoming pregnant. That is hard for me to admit and scary to write. I guess all I can do is place it in God's hands and hope that everything works out the way it is meant to. I am very blessed so far and as I look back over my life there has not been too many things that have happened that I haven't come to realize must have been meant to happen that way.
On another note today is windy, snowy and blustery and schools have cancelled an hour early so I am just waiting for my daughter to come home. I hope we get a chance to snuggle on the couch, wrap up in a blanket and drink some hot chocolate.