A Year!!!!

Tomorrow marks one year of being Logged-In. A year!!! That is 12 months!! That does not even count the 9 months it took us to complete our home-study and get all our paper work done. So when people ask me about the adoption is it any wonder I answer with...I don't know, I don't have a clue. It has started to feel like a lie that I am telling people. I haven't been keeping up with blogs like I used to. I haven't heard a thing from our agency. I feel so disconnected from the process at this point, when I was busy with the paper work I felt like it was more real. So here we are....12 months logged in and millions of miles from bringing Tya home. I could go on and on but I am trying to live in the moment and focus on what is going on in my life right now, but for this one time a month on the 19th, I allow myself to think about Tya and to wallow in the despair I feel at times, I allow myself to be dramatic and to feel sad. Then I get on with life and think about my two beautiful girls that are here right now and my wonderful family and friends.